Comparison

I hate comparison.
I really hate it. Even if you put it in 'there won't be growth if there's no comparison.'
I STILL hate to be compared with others.
Let me put it in this way,
Nobody likes to be compared to others.

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My mom compares me to others since when I was a kid up until this day.
90% of my heart, soul, and mind already numb to all this crap.
And Chinese parents always compares,
so I'm numb, the remaining 10% if probably anger or about to cry anytime if she wont stop that topic.
But what I'm mad about is not only my mom compares me, even my boy compares me to others.
WHAT THE HELL.

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Mariah, you've never been so right.

I'm not mad at that girl...
I'm just mad at my guy that why would he wanna compares me?
Doesn't he know that he actually DID hurt my feelings?
Not hurt 'a lil bit', but I am really disappointed.
I can't tolerate with that.

Just to express my negativity.

UGH

Judge

Ah...... Time to update this blog. 

So I got my pay check this afternoon. 
I'm really happy because I am earning money OMG. 
At least now I'm not using My Mom's money to go shopping, to yumcha with friends, to do my own stuff.
I think My Mom is also kinda happy about it. 
She doesn't need to give me 300 bucks every months and yell at me at the same time.
I AM AN USEFUL HUMAN. LIKE FINALLY. 

So last night I went supper with my boyfriend, 
just a simple coffee chain store nearby ma house. 
We struggled on which coffee to choose and which food we wanna eat. 
Such dilemma. 

 

Our order came, 

and so...... We talked. 

Not those lovey-dovey-pumpkin-pie-cupcake-romantic kinda topics, 

we talked like normal, gossip abit, judging people, judging ourselves, and laughed abit of course. 

Judging people makes me feel I'm going to hell, so I judge myself too. 

Moral

So it rained like shit just now. 
Thunder lightning like nobody's business. 
There's water leaking at some parts of My Grandma house. 

Dafuq. 
I think lightning strike at me and I died before I hit my dance moves. 

So last night I argued with Him. 
Not late night, around 11 something. 
It all started because I called him. 
And something happened and I got mad and I just cut the line off. 
I ended up crying in front of the TV. 

Why do I even wanna cry.
I was watching cartoons and I cried. 
I blamed him for making me cry, 
then I blamed myself why I cried... 


1 second later... 


I blamed him again. 
I even ended up crying until I fell asleep. 
And my nose was blocked by those mucus stuff, 
I CAN'T BREATHE. 

I turn my head from left to right to left again to find the RIGHT spot for me to breathe. 
When I lift up my head, 
I CAN BREATHE. 
AIR. 
At that moment, I really hope I can sleep with my head lifted. 
But I can't. 
I slowly lowered my head on the pillow and I still able to breathe air. 
I DIDN'T MOVE and I fell asleep. 

Today is still an awkward day because we didn't talk much. 
I mean we didn't text much. Yea. 
I shouldn't called him. 
No. 
I shouldn't even touch my phone. 
Why do I even have a phone. 
 
Moral of the day, 
Do not touch my phone when I'm watching TV.

Companion

Today is not any special day, it's just a normal day, but,
I want to blog about companionship --- My Boyfriend.

Well, he is not this bad because I play games WITH him.
Anyway,
when My Boyfriend was sending me home just now,
we were discussing abut my personalities.
I think he observe me for a very long time.
He can describe me so clearly, I got a shock because he know me sooooooooooooooooooo well.
Like SO WELL, he even know I can sit there alone and daydream and talk all by myself. 
AWESOME. 

He is a great friend, my bff, and a great lover. 
We gossip a lot, which makes him a good friend. 
We basically like to eat the same food and have same topics to talk to, which makes us bff. 
And we can sing/ yell in the car, acting we are professional drummer or guitarist, which makes us bff too. 
I love him so much and he loves me so much too, which makes him a great lover. 
We are beer buddy too. 

I just want to say, everyday is Valentine's Day. 
I Love You Dearest :) 

Do we look alike??

2 days

So I supposed to update this little space last night but I came home very late last night so I'm mashing up yesterday's little things and today's little big together in one post.

Yesterday

So I was waiting for the bus in the morning and I saw a small pack of instant noodle soup base powder on the floor.
For those who never encounter instant noodle in your entire life,
this is how it looks like:

One of my favourite sinful meal, fattening but incredibly satisfied. 
So I saw a packet of that soup base on the floor, 
then I was like why in the world will this be here?? 
Before my stupidity brought me further, 
my common sense hits me. FINALLY. 

"Dear Weng Sze, there is an edible object in this world called The Cup Noodle." 

Oh. 

So this is one of those days I felt smart. 

Anyway,
last night My Boyfriend, My BFFs and I went to our friend's house to celebrate his younger brother's belated birthday. 
And we stuck in the traffic for 2 hours and 30 minutes. 
AWESOME. 
I think my breakfast already been digested 3 times in my stomach. 
I'm just TOO HUNGRY and I ate like a monster when we arrived at the house. 

Burp. 

Today 

I HAND IN MY THESIS. 

YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 
I did it. 
I finished my thesis. 
It's actually quite touching you know, 
the moment when you hand in your hard work to your supervisor and you are ready to party. 
I tried to play calm but really, 
I'm so happy that I forgot my throat is unwell and I ate potato chips. 

By the way, 
this is the best potato chip like ever!!!!!! 

FF6

So this is a photo of My sister's hamster chewing/ stuffing a piece of tissue paper into it's cheek pouch. 
And those boxes in it's so called mansion, 
those boxes are the hamsters' rooms.
Yeah. 
My sis likes to feed those hamster with tissue papers. 
I don't really know why. 
My sis told me they use those tissue paper and build 'nest' in their rooms?? 
I don't know. They are hamsters, not birds. 
I'm confuse. 

So today My Boyfriend and I had a movie date at ma house. 
So romantic. 
We watched Fast & Furious 6 because last year he promised me he will bring to the cinema. 
And of course, we didn't watch. 
I think because we watch a little bit at the mamak store near his place when we are having dinner, 
HE IS HOOKED. 
And I think he just wanna make it up to me because he didn't bring me to the cinema and watch this. 

So he came around 4pm++++++ 
We connect the TV and his laptop with a thing call 'The HDMI cable'. 
WTF IT'S F*CKING AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE 
The movie he downloaded is already in HD 1081, 
and the HDMI cable thing just bring all these into a whole new dimension. 
It's like 5.1 Dolby Digital Surround at my house man!!!!!! 

 

I can't really find Dolby Digital Meme.

THX works the same. 

So the sound effect system is awesome, 

the movie...... well...... 

Illogically entertaining I would say. 

Yup. 

They got a big ass tank crushing cars at the highway and an aeroplane lastly exploded and Vin Diesel walked out like a boss. 

Awesome. 

You know what I am talkin' 'bout. 

I think two of my favourite characters are Roman Pearce and Tej. 

They are just hilarious XD