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Oh hello, fellow humans. 
I am so fed-up with my thesis's bibliography, 
I decided to blog about my life for 22/11/2014 since it's already 12:36am now. 

I feel so demotivated. 
I looked at the bibliography, 
I couldn't recall who the heck I cited in my thesis.
I have to freaggin find the citation one by one in the ocean of Times New Romans words. 
Once again, 
my stupidity conquered my patience.

Doing bibliography is one of the worst part in the journey for vomiting out a freaggin thesis.
It's like everything turns into hell within a few seconds. 
I gotta like , think how to cite, 
recall who to cite, 
which year to cite, 
how to spell their name correctly, 
the correct order to cite. 
NOPE NOPE NOPE. 

Anyway, 
so today I went some book convention with my cousins at KL. 
It's a small one, 
all chinese books. 
No matter, 
because I bought a cook book. HEH. 
He is a Japanese chef who grew up in Canada called Masa. 

Voila! Learn how to cook brunch from Masa! 
I bought this mainly because I wanna fulfill my little passion and dream for cooking. 
I have passion for fashion, football, and now - cooking. 
Ahh. Women. 

I manage to snap a few photos of my outfit of the day~ 
In Uniqlo's fitting room. 
Which is nice for me.
I like my today's outfit. And Uniqlo's fitting room mirror.
It's a lil bohemian, a lil beachy, like those models you see in Brandy Melville's Instagram account. 
"Like Those Models". LOL. 

I'm just full of confidence.
Deal with it, humans. 

Crop top - Cotton On
Outerwear - Cotton On
High Waist Denim - Factorie
Sneakers - Converse 

I was so lazy I didn't even put on any make up. 
Cincai grab my spectacle and ciao. 
I was THIS lazy. 
But I think I'm really close (?) to those Brandy Melville style. 
I like their style. 
Girly, casual, laid back, very versatile I would say. 
I'm working on it, blending their style and mine. 
Well, let's see how far I could go.

Feeling Pretty

Hi. Today if Friday and ALL CLASSES CANCEL. 
I'm so free this afternoon, 
I decided to slack until like 6pm? 
I the mean time, I decided to try to put on make up, especially eye shadow. 

My goodness,  for one sec I thought I look like Joker. 
I didn't even take a photo of it. 
I'm not born with a pair of deep set eyes like my mother, or double eye lids like her too, 
putting up eye shadow and trying to blend it - it is so damn hard. 
I'm starting to feel like my Naked 3 palette is a damn waste. 

Ahh. 
Why izit so hard just to be a fashion blogger.

Interest

Hello Humans. It's been a while. 

Yea. After three months and constant reminded by my woman Le Tong Sim Lu, 
I am back again for the Nth times. 
I started my Bachelor Degree on October and I'm so busy with le assignments, 
I don't really wanna miss any chance of staring at the ceiling blankly and slack the shit out of me. 

Yes. Constipation still haunts me and I rather spend time focusing on shitting than facing my laptop. 

But when I think back that my reasons to blog ( mainly because of the constant reminds of le Tong Lu),
I finally realize that my passion of sharing stuff has not die out just yet. 
I like to write, not writing freaggin' assignments or any papers, 
but just purely write my lungs and heart out. 
But other than writing my organs out, 
I wanna share a lil bit of my thought about my fashion thingy. 

Yes. 
I wanna be a fashion blogger. (Although this world is already overload with fashion bloggers.) 
Don't ask me why, I will tell you why. 
Because since I was a little girl (a lil sarcastic), 
I always have a thing for fashion. 
I like fashion. 
So, I saw humans are pumping their fashion/style thoughts around the world, 
I wanna join the fun too. 
Y'all know what I'm trying to say? 

So yea, I'll try my best to blog more often. 
Share more of my life and my fashionable thoughts with the Internet. 
I pray for myself I can keep on this fire for blogging. 
Burn my damn laziness away. 

BTW, 
when I'm talking about fashionable thoughts, 
I am DEFINITELY NOT talking about this. 

I'm so sorry to the designer of this, 
I just can't even. 

Lazy

I hope my brain can control the key board. 
I'm so lazy to type my thoughts. 
But I want to blog about my thoughts.
I wish I'm a mind-control genius. WTF. 

So updates on my kidney infection. 
I...... don't really know am I fully recovered... or not. 
Doctor said I'm good, but after I finish my antibiotics, 
I can still feel my my kidney is jumping. 

Dafuq I was saying. 
My point is, 
I can feel my kidney is there. Like, "THERE." 
My Mom say I'm over-reacting. 
According to her, I'm 'too afraid to die.' 

Nobody wants to die this early. 
Including me.

Anyway, 
I wanna be a fashion blogger. 
But I don't really know how. 
Plus my laziness. 
Gosh. 
I actually have a lot a lot a of of ideas going in my brain, 
I'm just TOO LAZY to type it all out. 
Yes darlings, 

I'M THIS LAZY.

Worried

Am I dead yet? 
Because kidney infection is haunting me. 
UGH. 

Couple of days ago, 
I realized I was having fever, on and off fever. 
Other than the heat, my right back hurts. 
I have no idea why, 
I quickly assumed the pain is because I pushed TOO HARD during bowel movements. 
3 time of bowel movements in one day. 
SO RARE. 

Booyah bitches! 

So as day goes by, (actually it was just like 2 days)
the pain got quite...... intense. 
I even shivered like crazy in the middle of the night. 
That kind of shiver was like your phone vibrating. 
Yes. VIBRATING. 

My mom thought I'm crazy when I'm walking around the chair to calm my shiver nerves down. 

So My dad brought me to the doctor. 
Guessed what? 
KIDNEY INFECTION. 

It's unbelievable. 
But it's true. 
I've been drinking water and more water and more water for the past 2 days. 
I almost vomited today. 
I can't believe I've discovered the miracle taste of water. 
NASTY. 

So the pain is still here, just not so pain. 
Perhaps it's the painkiller. 
I don't know. 
I don't wanna die. 



 

Judge

Ah...... Time to update this blog. 

So I got my pay check this afternoon. 
I'm really happy because I am earning money OMG. 
At least now I'm not using My Mom's money to go shopping, to yumcha with friends, to do my own stuff.
I think My Mom is also kinda happy about it. 
She doesn't need to give me 300 bucks every months and yell at me at the same time.
I AM AN USEFUL HUMAN. LIKE FINALLY. 

So last night I went supper with my boyfriend, 
just a simple coffee chain store nearby ma house. 
We struggled on which coffee to choose and which food we wanna eat. 
Such dilemma. 

 

Our order came, 

and so...... We talked. 

Not those lovey-dovey-pumpkin-pie-cupcake-romantic kinda topics, 

we talked like normal, gossip abit, judging people, judging ourselves, and laughed abit of course. 

Judging people makes me feel I'm going to hell, so I judge myself too. 

June

Oh...... It's June already? 

Gosh...... When is the last time I update this space man...... 
But actually, there's really nothing to write about...... 
I mean, everyday is like everyday, 
I'm like doing/repeating the same thing everyday, 
friends went UK for degree, but not me, 
therefore I can't really write about my little clumsy adventure/seeing blue eye/gingers in the UK. 
Unless if I wanna blog about my little thoughts which I don't have any by the way. 
I'm still writing articles, brain spinning crazily like everyday (even before sleep), earning money to spend them. 
Brain tired, I'm tired, my eyes are tired, 
I can't even like think like, my personal thoughts? 
Dafuq am I talking about. 
I wanna poo brain. 

Yup. Me. 

Sometimes I wonder do I even have a normal brain. 

May

Finally,
I feel like writing.
Ever since I got my writing job, I felt so lazy to blog.
I'm just so afraid of writing and writing, I eventually lose interest in writing.
The only thing that keeps me motivated is the allowance.
Humans are basically NOTHING without money.

Yea.
Gotta work hard, get more money.

So I suppose this post is gonna be a long one.
I have tons of things that happened in April to update here.
I went ice skating with ma BFF, I went lunch with my another BFF, I went lunch again with my another BFF, My Dad came back from Johor and we watched football.
Oh, and that's about it.
It's so short.

 Yep. My recent mood is something like his.
I think I better put some photos in this.

My long lost BFF.
The last time I saw her was like...... 4 years ago.
I can't recall, it's tooooooooooo long.
We look like each other huh. 

7 years ago.
7 f*ckin' years.
I still love her. If she saw this she'll probably scream the shit out of her. XD

 

And of course, 

the Tong Lu and the Ian. 

BFFz FOREVAzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

So I bought this hat from Forever 21. 
And each of us took many many many photos wearing it.
Damn, we look like macam yes.
Indie pop ah! Thanks to the hat which cost me rm69. 

And my high school old humans and I went ice skating.
We fell and screamed and laughed.
Gosh we had so much fun there. 
We went Genting too.
5pm took off from Sunway and arrived at Genting around 8:30pm. 
All freaking things in one day.
We were crazy as hell. MENTAL.
But I enjoyed it.
I don't know after this, when can we meet and do crazy stuffs together again.

22nd Birthday

Yes. 
Happy Birthday to me. 
I am officially 22 years old now. 
Feeling older day by day and one step closer to death. 
Yeah. 

Vulgar words to celebrate my birthday. 
So today is just like any other day. 
Work, writing articles, eat, sleep and walk around at my house. 
My Dad forgot my birthday. I think. 
He is now at Johor and I expect some message or phone call from him. 
But nothing happen. 
I'm still giving him a few more hours of chances to say happy birthday to me. 
Dad, pls call. 
My Mom remember Earth Day, but not my birthday. 

Well, few months ago my youngest sister said:

"Big Jie Jie, I will buy cheese for you as your birthday present." 

And few minutes ago, 
I really got cheese from her. 
Thank You Ah Xuan. 
Cheese. 

I think she and my 2nd sis discussed about it. 
My 2nd sister bought it I think. 
This is what she bought. 

Happy Birthday Yew Weng Sze.

Brain

Few days of laziness is a catalyst. 
I'm lazy to write blog now. 
Everyday is like everyday is one of the reasons, 
nothing special to blog about really. 
My like is miserable, normal, and more miseries are waiting for me. 

The 2nd reason is I don't really wanna on the laptop. 
Writing articles for a social network page, doing plenty plenty plenty of research is tiring and eye staining. 
I can feel my eyeballs are going to fall off anytime. 
Writing blog just makes me feel like My eyes are gonna explode. 

I'll probably look like that. 
Not now. I hope not forever. 

Plus recently there's something going on in my family. 
Gosh. 
After a long peaceful life, 
there's definitely something happen to ruin everything. 
Can't I just live my life peacefully and happily? 
Something is wrong with my grandma. 
She said her vision is blur which it never happen before. 
Of course, it scared the shit out of me. 
According to My Mom she is fine now, 
my aunt brought her to the optician and the optician said it's ok, nothing bad, 
probably high blood pressure. 
Hopefully is something minor, not big. 

And of course, the hamster pet. 
One of the hamsters has wound and fur starting to fall. 
My Sis said take the hamster to the vet, but my mom refuse. 
And this is where the problem started. 
Damn. 
That is why I don't really engage myself with pets. 

Tons of negativeness going on, 
My Boyfriend is here to hear everything. 
Thank You. 
And a book I bought that day, 
it's a nice book. 
Simple and entertaining and lovey dovey. 
I don'treally need to use that much brain power. 
My brain is stress enough, 
I don't need more challenge to pressure my brain. 
I'm just glad I have my own little world and imagination. 
Unicorns everywhere. 

Reality sucks.

Books

So last Saturday I went to a mall to spend my book vouchers. 
And I spent it like a boss...... with my youngest sister.

You can tell which are mine and which are hers. 
Mine are like...... More mature I guess. 
Sometimes I read her books too, 
when I am bored by my own book that I bought myself. 

So far, I read a book. 
The Notebook.

It's a very beautiful story. 
I really really really really really really really really really really really love this book although it's my first time reading it. 
It's about love, OBVIOUSLY. 
You just have to read it yourself. 
There's also a movie based on this story. 
Too bad I watched the movie first before I read the book. 
Ryan Gosling will forever be Noah and Rachel McAdams will forever be Allie. 

The book and the movie are nice. 
 Just...... the feelings of reading the book and watching the movie is different. 
I cried watching the movie, 
I cried even harder reading the book. 
A toilet roll was beside me all the time when I was reading the book. 
My nose is already blocked because of the flu, 
crying makes it 10 times worse. 
I can't breathe for the past 2 nights. 
But it worth the nose block. 
It's really a very good book. 

I really hope everyone in this world will consider adding this book in their reading list. 
It will made you laugh and cry and laugh again. 
Such a lovely book :)

Sick

Sore throat and flu hunt me. 
And now, I'm sick. 

Yes please. 
Bring me some damn whiskey, maybe my throat will recover by next day. 
Bad flu and sore throat. 
My throat is itchy and it hurts when I swallow. 
My nose well...... block. I CAN'T BREATHE.

This is me right now. 
Pretending to swallow air to see if my throat still hurts. 
It still hurts. And itchy. 
My voice broke a lil, high pitch note just appear in the middle of my great speech. 
I can't eat cake, my uncle made Tiramisu today and I can't eat it.
There's potato chips, chocolates, corn flakes and many many many stuffs and I can't eat. 
I can only eat bread and sesame spread. 
There is still a bottle of Heineken in the fridge, 
I heard people said beer cures sore throat. 
I wonder will it work. 

And my nose. 
Terrible nose block. 
I can't breathe. My lungs need air. 
I am practically sucking air, not breathing, but sucking air. 
It's like I have to breathe and move my head from the front to the back, 
just to suck more air. 
One of my nostrils is block, 
this is good enough because I smell dust and the smell of air. 
Other times I was like: 

 

I just wanna breathe. 

Stupidity

At this time, 
I actually have a few things in my mind now to post. 
Road trip part 2 and books and tons and tons of other stuffs. 
But my stupidity stop me from doing it. 

Urgh. 
Sometimes I even wonder am I retard or something. 
I was texting My Boyfriend and all of the sudden... 

"Message sending FAILED" 

Dafuq. 
I forgot to reload my credit. 
I went out for the the whole evening and I forgot to reload. 
What was in my mind that time?! 
Oh yea, Ikea, books, curry puffs, hot dog and ice cream. 

So I realize I need to reload my credit, 
I choose to reload via my bank account. 
E-banking they say. 
I haven't register e-banking function so I'm a first-time users. 
They require my access number and PIN number. 
Dafuq what is access number. 
I yelled at my laptop for 10minutes. 
My Mom even gave me the poker face. 
Then I realize it's in my confirmation letter. 

A poker to me, from me. 
And then I realize why after I key in my access number and pin, 
WRONG PIN
WRONG PIN 
WRONG PIN 
WRONG PIN 
WRONG PIN 

I ended up calling the bank's customer's service.
After talking to them, 
I'm a little calm. 
I decided to Google what's wrong with my registration thing. 

"User have to register themselves at the ATM to activate the E-Banking system before registering E-Banking via computer." 

 I should really...... go have some milk.

Road trip part 1

I think I should blog this. 
This is about a dinner/supper that I had with my friends last week...... I think. I forgot. 

Short term memory loss. 

Anyway, 
I remembered it was a rainy night because I remember there were heavy rain and lightning...... 
I think so. 
So I got a msg from a friend called Chiling because he is the one in charge of fetching the whole group of people to the dinner spot and each of us were scattered all around the state. 
Most importantly, 
HE HAZ CAR. 

He is one great guy. HAHAHA. 
Anyway, he fetched me first and I arrived home late, 
he waited in the car, in front of my house for 15 minutes I guess. 
I'M SORRY. 
I REALLY AM. 
So time to fetch another human~ 

It's really really jam in my place, traffic was really really bad. 
We stuck in the same road for almost 30 minutes. 
Because of I am guilty for letting him wait, I decided to talk to him. 
And you know, when girls talk...... AIN'T NO ONE TALKING. 

 
I think he was feeling like that for like 1 hour. 
I kept asking him questions and he didn't give me respond. 
Poor guy. 
So we reach BFF Jessica's house, we got lost in her housing area but it's okay. 
When Bff Jessica got into the car, I think his eardrum gonna explode anytime. 

And we are off to Joyce's house. 
So Jessica is pointing which road should he take, 
he didn't believe in Jessica, he chose Waze. 
And Jessica lost it. 

If I were Chiling, I'll take her words seriously. 
Everything she said, I'll answer YES YES YES YES YES YES. 
And after tons of nagging, laughing and yelling, we finally arrived at Joyce's place. 
Things calm down a little because all of the sudden, 
Chiling called her and spoke softly. 
He never spoke softly to Jessica and I, 
and I thought Joyce, Jessica and I are LADIES. 
Jessica lost it again. She was practically nagging Chiling again. HAH.
I need my poker face. 

FEAR ME. My poker face is Lagy Gaga by the way.

So 4 of us on the way fetching another guy called Marcus Chee. 
We talked, but didn't scream because we fear we might break the car's window. 
High pitch + high amplitude. 
It was a hard drive. I wonder if we go to a road trip together. 

Driving all the way with this face. 
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA 
So we finally reach 1U and we saw Marcus Chee. 
He said we were very noisy. 
Our voice almost bomb the car/ear. 
Too bad, mouth is for eating, swallowing, talking. 

 
I'm tired. 
I think I'll continue tonight.