Nervous

It's another post of yesterday and today mash up post. 

Two is better than one. 
TWO RYAN GOSLING IS BETTER THAN ONE RYAN GOSLING. 
OH MAI GAWD. 

Yesterday 

A hangout day with My Boyfriend and My BFF SimLu and Ian. 
4 of us laughed and laughed and laughed NON STOP. 
Oh. And Simlu Boyfriend was there too. 

This apply on only 4 of us. Excude SimLu's bf.
We went pasar malam and walked and we had asam laksa for dinner. 
Just like old times. 
And we bought more food although we are VERY VERY VERY FULL.
Ian taught us how to dance and shake our butts like those Kpop stars/ Jenniffer Lopez. 
IT WAS HARD. VERY VERY HARD. 
Ian said I swing like very awkward and they laughed at me. 

I looked at the reflection of the fridge. 
DAMN. I don't have any dancing talent at all. 
Even My Boyfriend and Ian can do better than me. 
SimLu can dance better than me. 
I was like push my stomach to the front and pull my stomach to the back x 10 times. 
I was lucky I didn't twist my back. 

Today 

Another football night without Dad. 
He went back to Johor, he is probably having drinking session with his friends now I guess. 
New Castle United vs Man Utd. 

So today I had a meeting with my boss and and fellow colleagues that I only talk to them virtually. 
The closest I get to know how they look like is from their Facebook profile photo. 
And profile photo is not always right. 

Yup. 
And today, 
I barely can even recognize who is who. 
I determined their identity by who is wearing spec and who is not wearing spec. 
Yea. 
And when everyone is here, the briefing started. 
Most of the time I stayed quiet because I was really nervous and I don't know what to say. 
I felt so...... transparent. 

Yea. 
But I got my pay cheque :D

青春永駐

我的第一篇中文 post. 

一些中文字已經忘了，所以會有英文字的出現。

我覺得這篇文章英文是很難表達出來，

母語雖然是英文，

畢竟學了九年的中文，說了整十多年的破中文，感情 wise 會比較貼切。

同桌在社交網站 po 了一篇東西，

90 後的成長。

裡面的東西說得真好，一針見血。

虛偽和現實，是我最不想面對的東西。

我知道有這倆的存在，只是不想去理，也不要去理。 

我寧願有自己的一個小空間，

做我自己喜歡的東西。

我不想學會長大，太複雜了。

要學會擦鞋，看臉色，小動作，搞小團隊，天啊我不喜歡遇到這些有的沒的。 

做人簡單一點不就好了嗎？ 

他說我有一點點 introvert, I think I really am one. 

Or to be exact, I'm a past person. 

I miss the past more than I look forward. 

The only thing that motivate me to look forward is thinking what to write for my job thing n what to eat the next day. 

And many more, books and tv and family and friends. 

And boyfriend of course. And money. 

Anyway, I only like mixing around with ppl that I already know, I'm lazy meeting new people. 

You see, that is one of the thing of growing up, 

You gotta meet people, talk bullshit, and smile and fake the day until you are home. 

I really don't wanna live in a life like that. 

About the I'm a past person thing, 

I like to think about the happy little life when I don't need to worry about everything. 

I like thinking about old times, 

Because I met a lot of great people, 

And I love spending time with them, 

Not that I don't see them now but... 

It's not like old times anymore. 

Time flies, things change, people change.   You will never had the feelings that you once had with them. 

Don't ever question yourself, 

It happens, all the time. 

It's just not the same anymore. 

But life goes on. 

I hope I won't forget my past, it is the one who shape me into a person I am now. 

Some are good memories, some are bad, 

But Never regret on what we did, because at that time, it was exactly what we wanted. 

The thing you can do is keep the good ones, try not to remember the bad ones. 

You won't forget, it just fade. 

A toast to our life, a toast to our youth.  

I'm blogging in English again. 

Typing mandarin is so troublesome :0 

Puffy Puffs

So I just baked some puffs with My Mom. 

Yea. 
One of the puff is not baked enough. 
I put too much cherry jam, 
it leaked out and My Mom scolded me XD 
Luckily I didn't burn the kitchen. 

The centre one is mine. 
Saw the jam? 
It leaked out THAT much. 
And the puff pastry won't rise LOL. 
My Mom didn't eat it, she said she is not going to eat that piece of lumpy ble ble. 
So I chose to share it with My 2nd Sister. 

A little burnt but taste beautiful. 
Taste beautiful...... Am I even using the correct term.
The filling is VERY SWEET, I can't even finish one all by myself. 
One of the puffs had black sesame filling in it. 
It tasted SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD. 
Of course it taste good, the bottle of thing cost RM20 man. 
The only downside of eating black sesame, 

SMILE~



 

Moral

So it rained like shit just now. 
Thunder lightning like nobody's business. 
There's water leaking at some parts of My Grandma house. 

Dafuq. 
I think lightning strike at me and I died before I hit my dance moves. 

So last night I argued with Him. 
Not late night, around 11 something. 
It all started because I called him. 
And something happened and I got mad and I just cut the line off. 
I ended up crying in front of the TV. 

Why do I even wanna cry.
I was watching cartoons and I cried. 
I blamed him for making me cry, 
then I blamed myself why I cried... 


1 second later... 


I blamed him again. 
I even ended up crying until I fell asleep. 
And my nose was blocked by those mucus stuff, 
I CAN'T BREATHE. 

I turn my head from left to right to left again to find the RIGHT spot for me to breathe. 
When I lift up my head, 
I CAN BREATHE. 
AIR. 
At that moment, I really hope I can sleep with my head lifted. 
But I can't. 
I slowly lowered my head on the pillow and I still able to breathe air. 
I DIDN'T MOVE and I fell asleep. 

Today is still an awkward day because we didn't talk much. 
I mean we didn't text much. Yea. 
I shouldn't called him. 
No. 
I shouldn't even touch my phone. 
Why do I even have a phone. 
 
Moral of the day, 
Do not touch my phone when I'm watching TV.

Different

So my social network company is having a meeting on this coming Saturday. 

IM SOOOOOOOOOOO NERVOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I'm gonna meet my boss and a few virtual coulleagues of mine which I haven't meet or talk to. 

So far I only talk to my boss only. THROUGH FACEBOOK :/ 

That's why I'm super nervous now. 

And it's at Publika, a place where no buses will take me too. 

I can only rely on the taxi. 

 

I hope my nervousness won't make me look like shit. 

We are going to have a lunch too. 

I don't really wanna look like a monster eating like a monster. 

I shovel spaghetti. 

Anyway, 

I got this from My Mom yesterday. 

ANTIQUE. 

I RUV IT. 

I feel swag man!!!!!! 

It's from the... I don't know when My Mom bought it, I only know My Mom wear it when she was 20 years younger. 

Swag eh?? 

I'm gonna wear this out everyday. 

It's so cool. I can feel so swaggie. 

At least nobody will wear this glasses out, ONLY ME. 

 

Style biatch. 

Random

I just ordered pizza. 
My Dad asked me to. 
I tried to play calm, as if I don't wanna eat pizza. 
But deep down in my heart I AM SCREAMING FOR PIZZA. 
Too bad My Boyfriend just went home. 

Pizza. 

Anyway, this afternoon I went dim sum breakfast with My Family and we went Klcc because My Mom wanted to redeem her vouchers. 
In conjunction of the Anime Event in Mid Valley, 
I dressed like a Japanese gal today. 
Observe. 

Blur photo taken by My Sis in the toilet. 
Bart everywhere. 
My Mom said my shoes are like safety shoes that My Dad wears at the construction site, 
My Sis said it looks like combat boots. 
I can only say they do not know the meaning of Fashion. 

So I bought this thing called 'Black Sesame Spread'. 
The lady said it's from Japan, RM20 for a bottle. 
I tried, I think it worth the price. 
Therefore, I bought it and My Mom paid for it. 
Thank You Mom. 

It's in my fridge now. 
I'm gonna try it tomorrow. 

Oh, and I had one of the best cendol at Klcc. 
Seriously, it's really good. 
It's been a while since I had a good bowl of cendol, not in kl, but in melacca, and I had diarrhea after that. 
I just can't believe I can have this in kl, sweet authentic gula melacca and creamy santan. 
Just the way I like it.

Pizza is served.

Dad and My first little review

So My Dad is back from Johor for the weekends and he is going back to Johor tomorrow. 
So busy. 
Never mind, at least I get to watch football with him. 
Man Utd vs Aston Villa, we didn't really put high hopes on this games. 
Oh, Aston Villa just scored. 
WTF. 

Someone just teach him how to win. 
I'm gonna break the TV into half. SOON. 

AH, about my review. 
It's my first ever beauty review. 
Confetti, champagne, celebrations y'all. 

A toast to me and my first review. 
And I'm introducing y'all a moisturizer for face which I think it's quite good. In My opinion. 

RM59.90 for 50ml. 
Quite reasonable for an organic brand because everything in Malaysia is getting more expensive than ever.  
It's from The Body Shop and it's a day cream which you apply it only on day time. 
I wash my face, pat with toner and then I apply this day cream then I put on my makeup. 
Easy as that. 

One of the reasons I like this cream because it moisture my face, very cooling and it prevent any excess oil from popping out but then, my face doesn't gets too dry.
The thing is like this, 

when your face is too dry --- makeup meltdown, BIG TIME. 
when your face is too oily --- another makeup meltdown, look just like cake batter. 

So this cream can prevent the 2 horrible scenes above from happening on your face. 
Which is very important because makeup meltdown makes people look ugly.
And this cream has a light scent, not too strong or smell like antibiotic syrup, I'm comfortable with it. 
Just apply a thin coat of this cream on your face before putting any sunblock or whatever, 
and voila.  

Therefore, I like this cream and this is a sincere review, hope this can help people who suffer from makeup meltdown and other people who wanted to purchase any moisturizer. 

Oh, Man Utd 2 and Aston Villa 1. 
It's only half time, I don't expect much.